Thursday, May 9, 2013

Where in the World is Angel "Sandiego"?

There is something incredibly liberating about no one knowing where you are in the whole wide world. You make your own decisions. You go where you want to go. Do what you want to do, etc. It can be a little exhilarating thinking about no one being able to find you. For the most part, being alone is nice. A little self-indulgent. It's good self help for me. Being alone helps me look inward at my thoughts, feelings and ramblings in my brain.

Today, I had a great day. Hung out with my husband, good quality time. Bought a few things at the Goodwill Store. That was a little frustrating, actually. But I followed it up with a spur of the moment nice long walk on the beach. Damn, it felt AMAZING. The sand in my toes. The sun on my face. The music in my ears. The water on my skin. No one knowing where I am. I walked and walked and walked. The good stuff. I need that more often. I need that all the time. Going to make an effort for that. And I know I could never move too far away from the beach.

And then the beer store had free cupcakes! Woot!



There's been a lot of things going on in the last few months. Friends getting married. Friends and Family having babies. Friends getting engaged. Family visits. Traveling to new places. Losing friends. Gaining friends. Loving my husband. Loving myself. Tattoos (the sequel to the Orange). Birthdays. Decluttering - physically and emotionally. It's been a busy time. 

I'm in a super good place right now. My husband is too. We have a lot of good stuff going on and stuff to look forward to in the future. Our 10 year wedding anniversary is next June, planning a vacation to New York City. woot woot! 10 years too ... that's amazing.

I haven't painted or created art in a very long time. It bothers me, but I don't know what to do to fix it. Well, that's not true. I need to drag out my paints and canvases and just DO IT. I need to get over the "what's the point" mentality. So what if there isn't an art show to sell anything at or people aren't buying anymore. That's not reason to not create. Need to find my motivation. Need my muse.

Writing a blog entry feels very cathartic. Yay, more good stuff!!


 “Happiness cannot be traveled to, owned, earned, or worn. It is the spiritual experience of living every minute with love, grace & gratitude.” - Denis Waitley