My life

Lately, I've been smiling a lot to myself when I think about my life. I've had a tough week this week and reached out to a friend to help get through it. I usually don't ask for help with my problems, just wallow in my own self-despair, oh, the drama. Do you know how great of a feeling it truly is to be able to call for help from a trusted, loving friend? This past weekend we went to a birthday party and everyone was so very excited to see us when we walked through the door a little late. It was like the party hadn't started until we got there. That's a great feeling too. To just feel so much love from these people we call friends.

I've never been a popular, cool kid. I had 1 friend in high school. 1 friend as a young adult. They were and are great friendships, but I never had a "circle of friends" before.

Until recently that is. I am truly grateful for it too. There is a lot of love from this eclectic group of people. We have our usual little tiffs and there is gossip behind backs of course, but it's a great circle of friends. Friends you call "chosen-family" and that's amazing.

And I'm truly grateful for each and every one of them, individually and as a whole. They love me! They love my husband! We are the cool, popular kids now. It's sooooo weird!!! It shows me how valuable I am to them and the community we are involved in. Sometimes, I forget and think no one likes me and blah blah blah. But the reality is ... I'm awesome and my friends reinforce this on a regular basis.

So ... I'm trying to dig myself out of this rut of in-my-head-self-despair. I need to learn how to cut myself some slack without feeling guilty and beating myself up. I need to learn how to fall in love with myself. If my friends all think I'm amazing, well ... they must be on to something, right? Love my flaws, my curves, my eccentricities, and my .... flair. hahaha.

Step one ... Getting my hair done!! Friday at 4:30!!!

Step two ... Getting my toes done!! 2 Fridays away!!

Next, gonna work on getting back into painting, planning more events, organizing house/life, get healthy too!!

Put it in MOTION! DO IT!!